I woke up the otherday. and I thank God that I woke up. and due to this blessing I began to ask myself.. "What am I doing here?" I am living in a small miserable dorm, gaining wait because i'm so alone and depressed that I try to comfort myself with food. I don't have a major because I don't know what to do with my life. and I'm only in college to make my parents happy. I'm only doing half the things I do to make someone else happy; I can't do it anymore.

I'm dropping out of college and i'm moving back to my home town to live with my significant other. i'd rather work two jobs than stay in college. sure I'm making friends. a couple really good friends. but this doesn't make me any less depressed. I hate it here. soon i'll be putting more art work up and commenting more on everyone's art because I wont' have the stress of homework and deadlines juggling 5 classes and a job trying to squeeze in time for homework and showers, (it's eather shower or sleep an extra 30 minutes.) it's just not me man, this place isn't for me.

thought i'd post an update since i'm never on here. time to brew up a cup of hot tea and go to the library where its quiet so i can type on my book some more. cheerio.